Today is my birthday and it feels right to thank God, my family and my friends for being with me through thick and thin and also accepting me with all my positives and negatives. I am so thankful to God for my parents who against the doctor's advice decided to bring me into this world. I am so grateful to God for honoring my parent’s decision and giving me life and keeping me alive to this day. I have lived through various situations of near death experiences and this tells me that I still have work on earth.
I was upset about something today and then as I thought about my attitude, I realized that all of us have scars and wounds in our lives, some of them have healed but some still hurt. I too have some areas that need total healing. Many a times in my intention to do well I end up messing the situation, my life and those around me. This is like the illustration of someone trying to cut the cocoon to help the butterfly emerge. I am still learning to balance the aspect of "letting go". Sometimes it is good to let go of situations, let go of the past, let go of people, let go of things, let go of hurts, let go of insults, let go of humiliation, let go of misunderstandings and let of go of all that we think is dominating our thoughts and that would mean let go of our past successes as well.
This area has been a constant challenge for me and today I gave into it again. I can neither blame my hormones, my situations nor people for my behavior and emotions. I am totally responsible for my actions. I can't believe how stupid I can be sometimes. I wish I could say like some of my friends that it is not me but my hormones but I know our Indian culture will demand us to just get up and get going! Hey, I know I am making myself very vulnerable here but I am very sure that you too have an area that you struggle with. You don't need to talk it out loud like I do but search your heart and mind and I know there is an area that sounds familiar to mine.
Being a Christian doesn't mean our life just changes overnight, in many ways our perspectives and priorities change but you know what the process of changing the inner man begins at that moment when you decide to follow Christ. Let me tell you this, dealing within ourselves hurts even worse than the actual situations. The reason it becomes difficult is because we have built layers of other emotions on that hurt and when it surfaces it is like trying to remove layers of bandage and cotton on open wound (especially around the knee and elbow)and then cleaning it with antiseptic. Ouch! The good news is the healing touch of Jesus comes in like a gentle breeze and He not only takes the burning sensation away but also heals our wound and gives us new skin. Hey, but remember we must remove the bandage and let Him look at our wound!
I don't really do resolutions but my desire today is that God would look into my wounds that need His healing touch so I can be healed and set free. In this way I will make right choices and make my life better and the lives I associate with. I am indeed thankful to God for giving me life and teaching me through life's experiences so I could share it with you.
I was upset about something today and then as I thought about my attitude, I realized that all of us have scars and wounds in our lives, some of them have healed but some still hurt. I too have some areas that need total healing. Many a times in my intention to do well I end up messing the situation, my life and those around me. This is like the illustration of someone trying to cut the cocoon to help the butterfly emerge. I am still learning to balance the aspect of "letting go". Sometimes it is good to let go of situations, let go of the past, let go of people, let go of things, let go of hurts, let go of insults, let go of humiliation, let go of misunderstandings and let of go of all that we think is dominating our thoughts and that would mean let go of our past successes as well.
This area has been a constant challenge for me and today I gave into it again. I can neither blame my hormones, my situations nor people for my behavior and emotions. I am totally responsible for my actions. I can't believe how stupid I can be sometimes. I wish I could say like some of my friends that it is not me but my hormones but I know our Indian culture will demand us to just get up and get going! Hey, I know I am making myself very vulnerable here but I am very sure that you too have an area that you struggle with. You don't need to talk it out loud like I do but search your heart and mind and I know there is an area that sounds familiar to mine.
Being a Christian doesn't mean our life just changes overnight, in many ways our perspectives and priorities change but you know what the process of changing the inner man begins at that moment when you decide to follow Christ. Let me tell you this, dealing within ourselves hurts even worse than the actual situations. The reason it becomes difficult is because we have built layers of other emotions on that hurt and when it surfaces it is like trying to remove layers of bandage and cotton on open wound (especially around the knee and elbow)and then cleaning it with antiseptic. Ouch! The good news is the healing touch of Jesus comes in like a gentle breeze and He not only takes the burning sensation away but also heals our wound and gives us new skin. Hey, but remember we must remove the bandage and let Him look at our wound!
I don't really do resolutions but my desire today is that God would look into my wounds that need His healing touch so I can be healed and set free. In this way I will make right choices and make my life better and the lives I associate with. I am indeed thankful to God for giving me life and teaching me through life's experiences so I could share it with you.
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