Do you want to play?

I find myself visiting my past some times and then some situation or the other would trigger my emotions. Most hurtful are the situations of betrayal and disappointment and this makes me uncomfortable. I sense a compelling urge to go back and undo. Do you find yourself in similar situations? The one thing we can't do in reality is "Undo"! Don't be discouraged I found out something. God chose my favorite medium to speak to me - movie.

The name of the movie is "War Games" made in 1983. This movie is about a computer which was programmed to play games and win. It analyzed all the failures and devised all possible scenarios. The main goal of this computer was to win, no matter what. One young computer whiz accidentally sets the computer to play a war game that actually simulates the defense computers and creates a panic of nuclear war in America. The computer takes the command and refuses to respond to the programmer. The programmer and the young boy finally engage the computer in game against itself and after endless games the computer understands a very important lesson.

Let us connect this to our lives. I, as a human being was programmed to succeed. In the game of life I got so carried away with the passion to do the right thing and to win that I couldn't see me getting into the command and destructive mode. I experienced both success and failures. I have good and negative emotions. As much as I am confident, aggressive, passionate, good, kind, and truthful and also demonstrate skills in everything I set my mind and heart to, I also face my share of disappointments, hurts, insecurity, betrayal, rejection and bitterness. At a certain stage of my life I got confused between my success and failures! I started hurting myself by judging myself and trying hard to overcome my weakness and win! I constantly and conscientiously have to allow my programmer God to take control and prevent me from self annihilation.

All of us can change. We can choose to do right and we can choose not to let the success and the failures dominate our lives. We have to live each day as a new day and like the computer realized, "the only winning move is not to play". It is always good to stop when you know what is going to destroy you - don't play and you will win. Don't go with the emotions and you will never get big headed or bitter. Bury the past with everything it came, look to the future as a brand new birth. In this way you will be less disappointed and you will reduce the use of "Control Z"!